JeSuisHunter

whatshouldwecallme:

I miss childhood. A lot. I miss when a normal thing to do with the girl you love was to go explore and build a tree fort and look over the neighborhood from said tree fort. Adulthood is so tedious and depressing. I know I’m not a ‘real’ adult yet but I’m already so much less happy.

We have to use substances to be happy and to have an imagination. It’s weird how in the US, as kids, we’re taught to just be chill and apathetic about things. That’s what the ‘cool kids’ do. And it’s like we forget how to feel. And then as we get older we drink, and smoke and ingest whatever we can to not be like that anymore. No wonder America is one of the most depressed countries. We don’t drink and have fun for merriment. We do it because we need it to be able to function in a social atmosphere. It just disappoints me so much. It’s so sad that we’ve changed ourselves to be these self loathing, hate filled, selfish, apathetic creatures. It’s not how we’re supposed to be. We’ve completely warped ourselves to be these monsters, and one day, in a sudden moment of clarity you wake up and realize how much you hate what you’ve become. I know I do it. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I used to be so sweet and caring and loving of everyone. I miss it so much, I’ve intentionally hardened my heart to the world because of the pain it bears down on me. It just hurts too much to try and deal with everything bad that happens in the world. I used to not be able to play the game ‘Pikmin’ because I would cry when my pikmin died. I wish I was still like that. I wish I still had the innocent and love I did as a child.

I wish my soulmate and I could explore and play in the fields and lay down and watch the stars, I want to hold her and listen to everything she has to say, feel her breath on my chest and her hand on my side. Just watching the universe as it sits still in the night sky. I hate college partying, I hate alcohol, I hate where everyone my age is at, it’s so disappointing and sad. I just want to innocence I had as a child back. Please someone tell me that’s still possible.

I don’t want to have to let it go.

-HCM

whatshouldwecallme:

Life sucks sometimes. It’s hard to be a contributing, responsible member of society. It comes with so many things you have to do that are not fun. Life has become really boring and dull for me lately: School, work, school, work, school, work, etc. But I get by thanks to one person. Who is my life.

I was watching a guy my age walk back from class today. He seemed so dull and unhappy and machine-like. Then he got a phone call and his face instantly lit up and he started clamoring with excitement and happiness. It made me think about how much one thing, or person, can change our lives so much.

I don’t know where I was before you, but I don’t really ever want to go back there, because where I am now, with you, is an infinite amount better than I ever was by myself. You’re the one thing in my life that always makes me happy. Even when I’m mad at you, or you’re mad at me. I still completely love you. Wandering around Minneapolis at night with you is the greatest thing in the world to me. It feels like a wonderland, whether sober or not. I just want to make sure that can happen a lot in my life. I want to wander around the world with you. I want to spend every second with you. It’s really kind of annoying. I think you did something to me when I met you. Because I haven’t been able to stop thinking of you since.

Long distance can go fuck itself.

Thanks for being the one in the world that always makes me happy.

-HCM

whatshouldwecallme:

No story this time. That is just probably my favorite French phrase of all time. Don’t speak French? Try Google Translate ;)